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chiong to prelims ! persistance is good when u know something will come out of ur effort … it is bad when u know u cant make a difference and u waste ur time … losers are those who are dumb enough to put in the effort and fail and say, i gave my best shot … HOWEVER to be happy :

[1]give more

[2]take less

[3]forgive and forget

[4]smile more

[5]live life love life

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life is a long road that we have to walk

we are just humans we are no gods

walking throught roads of torment and despair

lifes but a game of roulette ?

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religions and races they divide us apart

god made us different but we all have a heart

live life and love life why cant we do that

are we just gamblers of life and death ?

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needing wanting and not minding is 3 different things …

Firstly … need is a requirement … its something essential … needing means u must have it … want is a desire its a secondary or tertiary requirement that is not very essential … it is often ‘wanted’ to please … wanting means u want it even though u dont really need it… not minding means it does not do any harm and u do not object and it does not bring any advantages or disadvantages …

when u say u need … u mean u cant carry on without it … that it is essential to your life …

when u say u want … u mean u crave desire for it and it is something that u dont have …

when u say u dont mind … u mean u can do without it and it is not of much value to u …

bleh crappy …

today went to sku for math and phy … as usual class was noisy so din manage to do much revision … especially for physics … liddat i rather study at home … then went to piano class and completed a new piece … going on to the next one le =] … then went home snacked on a can of button mushrooms … yep … tts about all … pretty dull day i can say … haiz … feel suuuuuuuuper sian … my heart is like dead le … brain empty … well well … tmr got english oral better go revise the techniques … then do warm up … continuously say rrrrrrrrrrrr with ur tongue haha … sounds absurd but it works !!!

say yes say no but say none of anything or dunno

Every time i think of you I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It’s no problem of mine but it’s a problem I find
Living a life that I can’t leave behind

There’s no sense in telling me the wisdom of a fool won’t set you free
But that’s the way that it goesn and it’s what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I’m waiting for that final moment
You’ll say the words that I can’t say

I feel fine and I feel good I’m feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don’t know what to say
Why can’t we be ourselves like we were yesterday

I’m not sure what this could mean I don’t think you’re what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I’ll never see just what we’re meant to be

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I’m waiting for that final moment
You’ll say the words that I can’t say

thoughts of a marshmallow …

i guess i blew it … only got myself to blame … i hate myself …

strange behaviour overtaking me …becoming paranoid or maybe my sixth sense is accurate … thought alot after reading and thought it was best not to ask anything … i am afraid a slight collision might shatter everything i have now … the fear to ask the uncertainty … bundled up inside … the incomplete answers provided … totally heart wrenching … the uncertainty …

thoughts may not relate , my mind isnt great …

the question is to question or not to question …

the fear of collision and shattering of glass hearts is the cause of paranioa …

the fear of uncertainty and denial lies on thin ice …

the fear of the end is drawn from paranoia …

the fear of thoughts is unpredictable …

the fear …

its dumb … things around me are dying … my uncle … my plant … and my tortise … hais … my uncle … he got cancer … and i went to visit him today again … he looked weak … and he was so skinny he looked like a skeleton … only his stomach bulging because of the swollen liver and internal organs … the sight of him shattered my heart … i felt like cring when i saw him … and his children are still so young … the eldest still in pri6 while the other 2 are in kindergarden … hais … then the plant … however much water it … fertilizer i put … its leave keep dropping … and my tortise … the one i have been rearing for almost 5 years … its shell become so soft and the bottom bleeding … i dunno why … i am like … hais … i have not been like so attached to it since we reared it but i mean … i feel really down when i see death … but how do we inerpret death … maybe its our own selfish desire to see them alive because u dun want them to leave u … but what if death is beyond feelings … where u exist in a plane/dimension … with no sense of touch smell taste hearing sight … because u have lost ur ability to think and feel together with ur brain … would it be better or worst ? hais … no mood to put colours … sian … i hope my tortise gets better tomorrow …

whole day at home zhuo bo … morning wake up le pack my bed then brush teeth … then play comp … gege go cut hair then shun bian buy back meepok for me to eat … then soon he went out to train … and i continue play comp until mama and papa come home … they bought lamb soup for me to drink for lunch … with rice of course … then i again slack at home and watch tv … show after show … even watched a tamil version of poltergeise on vasantham central … then ate dinner and bathed … then play comp until now … u say sian or not ?

wahaha i went to watch a movie with my brother and mother … watch injection … catch it man … its a thriller and some funny scene also haha … nice show … but if u keep thinking u will become mad and scared de haha … catch it !!! next up house of wax and premonition !!!